One Tree Hill.


I'm watching one of my favorite episodes of One Tree Hill :) I mean, which one isn't my favorite? Lovin' it..."The Wind That Blew My Heart Away" <3

Eleven AM.

Listening to Boyce Avenue for the morning; started off with "On My Way" <3 such a precious song! 

In any case, I begin to go to the gym today, and I only have one class because my first was cancelled. I have practically finished packing for Thanksgiving break, and I can't wait because on my way back, I'm picking up my friend in Staten Island instead of driving the straight 8 hours from my house to Buffalo. 

I'm super excited just to see my family, even if it is for two days - and I may go Black Friday shopping for the first time ever. Being an RA has its perks, but it also means that you can't leave until your residents do so first. So, compared to last year, I have a TON less vacation days. Oh well...I love my job too much to care! 

Goals of the day:
-finish the homework I don't want to be bothered with on my two-day vacation.
-vacuum my room
-clean up to make my room appear like an OCD patient lives there
-finish packing
-bring friend to train station
-play guitar
-work out, buddy

One day, I'll post in all Spanish and then I'll die of exhaustion after :P

And we've got a boredom post, people.

I am welcoming myself back with a silly survey.

1. Tell me about your ex.
Well, he was interesting. I told him I loved him but later realized it meant nothing. I had no idea what love was, and I was a junior in high school. He was allergic to practically everything, and our relationship never felt right to me. 

2. Drunken storytime.
The one time I had a little too much and went to go visit some of my friends, who thought it was hilarious. I prefer not to participate in this type of activities.

3. A secret you haven't told many people.
A little after homecoming senior year, I was sexually assaulted and never disclosed that information to anyone until this year at school. 

4. A fact about the last person you kissed.
He is covered in freckles and is super cute :)

5. Favorite TV Show
One Tree Hill.

6. You last received text
Andy is excited you're coming lol

7. What last made you laugh til you cried
Amanda said something hilarious last night

8. List of concerts you've attended
Kely Clarkson, Colbie Caillat/Lifehouse/Goo Goo Dolls, Paramore/The Starting Line/The Almost, Paramore/No Doubt, Jonas Brothers/Demi Lovato, Lady Gaga, Kate Voegele/Andy Grammer/Natasha Bedingfield, Colbie Caillat/Andy Grammer, Kate Voegele/Parachute

finish later


Ok, so let's talk about how I'm now 19 and 11.5 months. I am in college at Daemen College in Buffalo, New York, and last year was an interesting and kind of negative transitioning experience into college, especially with roommate issues and things. And I'm sitting in the library just about hungover. However it may seem, my life is not in shambles, my friends. Last night was the first bad decision I made this year! So I applaud myself in regards to experiencing new things, but I do have to say that many great things are happening in my life:

So-called "New Boy" from around graduation is still around! We have been dating for two years on December 15th. 
I am studying abroad in Mexico City for a semester next semester (four months) as a sophomore!
I am an RA in the freshman dorms, and I love my residents!
I have reestablished my relationship with God!
I am booked solid with homework! 
My birthday's in 3 weeks!
I have a resumé!

All of these things are great :) I'm super happy and I try to be as optimistic as possible. I find that after getting back into my faith and going to church every Sunday, I am less stressed and more positive about everything. I am so grateful for everything I am and have, and believe me when I say I am blessed to have all the people in my life that are here. I hope to pick up this blog again! 

Also, I have to learn how to change the language of the LiveJournal page to English...why is is in Spanish? Granted I understand almost every word on the page, I would just prefer to make it a little easier on myself. 
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Long One. One Year Ago.

I’m now eighteen and a half and I can honestly say that compared to last year, I am NOW happier than ever. I think about marriage and how it won’t be completely perfect, and now it’s all coming into perspective. Relationships are serious and require work, and now that I have been involved with that, I’m thankful. I still wonder what it’s like to wake up next to your SO and be completely content in that moment knowing that when you turn, you will see the face you want to see next to you as a preview to waking up married. It has to be cute J As far as the whole virginity thing goes, well, I still have my morals and stuff. I’m not worried about sleeping with someone, but rather sleeping next to someone who cares about you as much as you care about them.

Going to NJ for a mandatory visit. Family things need to be fixed, and we shall fix them.

Graduation Day is June 9, 2010. I have to do my last band concert, senior prom, final exams, and then walk across the stage and I’m all set to go. I’m worried, but more nervous. I’ll be okay. I move into Daemen September 4 which means out of my house by September 2 or 3 due to the seven to nine hour trip. I may survive.

New Boy goes to Italy two days after graduation and I worry but I know he will be okay cuz we are both strong, and this is my first NORMAL relationship (as in, less than two allergies…only seafood). Work is flooded and I have been transferred but I’m stressed so not really working. Softball so far is going well. With our titles last year, I hope we do alright. We are 3-1 now, lost to Cumberland who we won against in the ships. And again for college, Early Childhood Special Ed with a minor in Spanish.

Hasta Luego!


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Dream Writing Space

Today's prompt: Describe your writing space. Focus on the smallest details possible, not the big ones. Don't say there is a chair in the room; give details about the wear patterns of the rug under the chair, or the paint chips, or the dog hair in the cushion. Go small to tell big.

If you don't have a writing space yet, describe your dream space.

My dream space...

It consists of nothing but wear and tear. the keyboard is worn down on the e and s keys. I think I use those the most. Then there is the orange fuzzy carpeting that I will have had made especially for my writing room. There will be an orb chair that is perfectly round but perfectly fits my body and all its creativity. the door will be covered with calendars on the inside, and on the outside will be warnings: "do not enter", "cuidado!", or "beware of writer". The walls are covered in my own stuff and my desk that should be used for expressing my creativity is instead clad with post-its and paper napkins where I write random thoughts. My guitar sits alone, used for its melodic quality when, at times, I feel a song coming. When a story tramples up from the piles of thoughts in my brain, I create a masterpiece.

I still thank goodness for WFMAD. 2 in a row.

Today's prompt: Last night my husband made me an incredible dinner; the kind of meal that you make for someone you're dating when you are ready for the relationship to go to the next level. (Is there anything as nice as being courted by your spouse? I don't think so.)
Write about preparing that kind of meal. It can be from your POV or that of a character. It could be the meal you'd like your beloved to make for you. Focus on taste and smell and making your reader very, very hungry.

   My favorite meal will hopefully take place after I am married. We will have been happily married for a few year and never happier with each other. I will cook my husband his favorite meal, hopefully breakfast-for-dinner. He won't be expecting it, so I will be preparing it carefully. 
   As he walks in the door clad in a button down shirt, slacks, and a tie, I will take his bag from him and also his jacket. He'll say, "what did you cook?" and I will simply reply, "a little bit of a surprise". He will smell garlic and onions that i cooked with the home fries, the corned beef hash, the fluffiness of the scrambled eggs, and the gentle burn of english muffins toasted to perfection. In his eyes I will see appreciation as he sits down and we say grace.
   The meal then begins with him telling me about his day and once he is finished, I will tell him I love him and that's why I cooked this meal for him. It will be a gift for me to see that loving expression that he offers. He will want to do the dishes afterward, and I will tell him not to because he had a long day at work. After I start the dishes, he will come up behind me in mid-wash and he will wrap his arms around me, spin me around, look into my eyes, and tell me that he appreciates every little bit of me. I will ask, "every single bit of me?", and he will reply yes, kissing my neck and then my lips as the plate is thrown onto the kitchen counter and I am gently whisked away.

so happy that WFMAD is back.

Today's prompt: Write down the last dream you had. Was it boring? Then write down the last memorable dream you had. Can't remember your dreams? Then write down the last memorable dream that you heard about. Focus on feeling the emotional state of the dream. When you reach the end of the decription, keep writing, Make the dream come alive for fifteen minutes.

Oh wow. The last dream I had was about someone showing up at my house and doing something unpredictable.

WFMAD starts now!

He showed up out of the blue, as if from out of thin air. The surprise was ironically welcome from me because I had been having doubts at the time. A certain sweatshirt was worn, and I was in my pajamas, alone in my house. So many of those things feel like they should be right where they were that morning. The things he said, though, were unexpected. he promised change, and whenI doubted him he kissed me, the kiss exploding and presenting fireworks in front of us. This change was also welcome because I want it. I mean, so many things went wrong and I can't explain them to him because he wouldn't understand. He promised no yelling, no arguing, for compromising and love. Everything would change.
Then I awoke. My day started off horribly because I woke up to find he wasn't there.
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Great Book, Sarah Dessen!

A already like it! Along For the Ride, which I bought immediately after school today, is good. I have only read 10 pages but it's great!


It's been a while since I've blogged.

Well, all I can say is that I've had a quite eventful month.


The only reason I happened to bring this up now when it originally occurred two weeks ago was because I just bought Sarah Dessen's newly released novel, Along For The Ride, which reminded me that people do split up. *Hoping that this doesnt happen to me*.

Speaking of which, on a happier note, i have never been happier. EVER. As I am seventeen and a half, I think sometimes about what marriage could be like but I understand that I have no absolute idea whatsoever. I do wonder what it's like to wake up each morning in the arms of your SO, like Haley and Nathan after that marshall law thunderstorm, or like Peyton and Lucas after Honey Grove prom. It would seem nice, and I just hope that some time soon, I get to experience that. Not so much the whole losing your virginity thing (very personal, SORRY) at seventeen and a half, but the whole feeling of waking up and knowing that someone that cares about you is right there, next to you, and waking up beside someone who cares about them, too.

To continue on the whole June tangent, I went to NJ to visit family this past weekend. It was not so eventful as a "vacation", but you get the picture. Seeing family, will travel.

June 23rd is the last day of school. Class Day already happened, making me officially a senior in high school. Hoping to make some wonderful and life-changing but good adjustments in the near future.

June 24th is the night I go with my sisters and awesome uncle to see No Doubt and Paramore @ Mohegan Sun. Going to be great considering Paramore's live sets are phenomenal.

I go back to trabaja after our amazing softball wins in D1 for both JV and Varsity, again both against Cumberland. I work 3 days a week (or have been, I don't know about summer yet). I am hoping to make a lot of money because I need a lot of money for college and I need to go on scholarships, so I'm hoping the money will get me everything I need to live at universidad by June 2010.

I have started planning road trips. I'm talking destinations -- not so much dinero wise considering I do have to work. I'm planning New England because I don't want to travel way too far, and I'm hoping that Prom Date will have the opportunity to travel conmigo if it's considerably close, and maybe we can experience that whole waking-up-next-to-each-other type of feeling. Again, not the *personal* part. Considerations go to: Cape Cod, Mass., Newport, RI, Boston, Mass., Old Orchard Beach, ME (which is a stretch but I'm going for it!), and Martha's Vineyard. Espero que si voy al Maine, I can visit University of Southern Maine as a possibility for universidad.

By the way, I'm not half spanish or anything, I just need to practice hablando for my examen.

Hope that was long enough for you.