I’m now eighteen and a half and I can honestly say that compared to last year, I am NOW happier than ever. I think about marriage and how it won’t be completely perfect, and now it’s all coming into perspective. Relationships are serious and require work, and now that I have been involved with that, I’m thankful. I still wonder what it’s like to wake up next to your SO and be completely content in that moment knowing that when you turn, you will see the face you want to see next to you as a preview to waking up married. It has to be cute J As far as the whole virginity thing goes, well, I still have my morals and stuff. I’m not worried about sleeping with someone, but rather sleeping next to someone who cares about you as much as you care about them.
Going to NJ for a mandatory visit. Family things need to be fixed, and we shall fix them.
Graduation Day is June 9, 2010. I have to do my last band concert, senior prom, final exams, and then walk across the stage and I’m all set to go. I’m worried, but more nervous. I’ll be okay. I move into Daemen September 4 which means out of my house by September 2 or 3 due to the seven to nine hour trip. I may survive.
New Boy goes to Italy two days after graduation and I worry but I know he will be okay cuz we are both strong, and this is my first NORMAL relationship (as in, less than two allergies…only seafood). Work is flooded and I have been transferred but I’m stressed so not really working. Softball so far is going well. With our titles last year, I hope we do alright. We are 3-1 now, lost to Cumberland who we won against in the ships. And again for college, Early Childhood Special Ed with a minor in Spanish.